Posts Tagged ‘self help’

Have you ever had the Holy Spirit whisper something to you really loud. As I diligently pursued getting to know this teacher of the Trinity, I’m amazed by his gentleness, so its just like him to get a ferocious point across with the force of a whisper. So brief background, I had a relationship that was 99% frustrating, and I’ve been bringing this to the Father but what I realized through this learning experience was I was really treating my problems like a side dish at a pot luck, I was just sharing them and bringing them back home with me. What sorta faith is this. I was talking to a friend & every time she tried to give me advice it hit a nerve and the pain was all right at the surface, like a fresh wound that hadn’t healed at all. And let me interject this, the past couple of years I have been on my own journey to find out who God is to me and with every single discovery I’m completely desperate for more. I’m convinced my Father has given me authority I can’t even begin to imagine, yet I must begin to imagine. I am convinced the Creator of the universe, my Father, has more power than all my fears combined. Stories I’ve read and podcast I hear convince me that seeing the dead raised, the blind see and the deaf hear is more than a possibility its a commandment it’s a job description for the mighty calling on the life of every believer who dares. So these are the ground rules to what I consider the core beliefs of my secure faith, with God absolutely anything is possible. I think I believe that, but theres this relationship, a thorn in the flesh for sure, and on this day I’m in the familiar spot of hopeless & ready to jump off a sinking ship. I mean at some point thats just prudent, right? But see I know the words the Father has spoken over my life and I know the people they include and this relationship is involved, so anyways, I replay this conversation in my head as I engage the Teacher Holy Spirit & I begin to notice I have zero faith when it comes to this relationship, and the Holy Spirit reminds me that I believe God can do anything. I realize after tossing this back and forth I kinda don’t want God to fix this, almost in a humble way…like Ohh Father I got this, there’s plenty of other things that need your attention, and besides this it’s too broken, I should’ve realized that a long time ago and saved us both the trouble. And thats when the whisper comes….”but what about the fact that I make all things new?” I still hold my ground, but this would require more new than new car sent new, and that’s when I put my finger on it, deep down there was this murmur that said “No way, impossible, it can’t be done” I believe the Red Sea was parted, I believe the impossible stories I’ve heard about healings and miracles, but it boils down to idenity. God stepped in because more was at steak, was that it, was that where my faith hinged on the worthiness of me and my need. What kind’ve faith is that? Did I think God’s mercy and grace was for the multitudes but fell short when there was only an audience of 1. See when I actually say it, my heart argues with my head. I really didn’t know there was such a big part of me that was holding back, I thought I believed God could do anything, but now I knew there was part of me that wasn’t all in. This was an awakening, because when I break it down it easy the spot the lies, the crack in the foundation of your thoughts. The truth is God doesn’t need a publicity stunt, and just like I love each one of my children individually more than they could ever possibly imagine, He’s got me beat with his love for me. So if God is only as big as my faith is, no wonder my realtionship feels so hopeless, I wasn’t factoring him in to the solution at all. And this simple truth, this ferious whisper was a ground breaking revelation, that brought me in over my head in love with my Savior who’s waiting on me to invite him in. Waiting on me to line up my heart and head with the truth of who he is and the magnitude of how he loves me, he wants me to come boldly to him, but the bodly means I’m not holding back a bold request means, I’m asking for 100% backing and I know without you it’s impossible, but you make all things new. You know sometimes I thnk the Father wants to know what we want, what is it you want? Now do you believe he has time for you? Because his word says he does. Do you believe this is a problem you can fix, are you still weeding out possible solutions, because I was. I thnk the Father wants you to leave your “do it yourself, for dummies” book at home and come to him with complete abandonment, like a child, just like a child would, beacuse thats how the Father gets involved with an audience of 1 that comes to him just like child…and that changes everything…

When I don’t return sarcasm for sarcasm, that’s because You were guarding my heart, when I give You my heart, You guard it for out of my heart flows all of life, so in the midst of a storm you covered me with your wings, you gathered me in and protected my utmost with your highest. And in the aftermath you restored my soul. I trust you with anything because you already protected it with your everything. You’re mercies are new everyday, it’s impossible to get to the bottom of your love, so dive in deep, head first, give it a try, you got nothing to loose, but everything to gain.

A bold decree attracts the hand of the hand of The Lord,
Well I’ve made some bold decrees & I couldn’t feel further away, I realize feelings are emotions and are not facts, but they feel real, and I feel real alone. I hate this feeling, I hate living this way & it’s always been this way, it’s like asking God to change a rock into a butterfly, maybe there are just some things that aren’t worth changing, maybe there are somethings that just can’t change because they don’t want to change. I don’t wanna give up, but only b/c I don’t know what else I’d do, there’s no hope in that, but there’s no hope in any of it, this is the definition of nonexistent hope. I don’t know the string you pull, I think it’s thread bare.

Less than 5 ,000 days how will they be lived, how will they be celebrated…will they be celebrated. Everyday counts even when the very thing you’re holding onto bites you keep holding and regrip, if what you holding bites you then you’re not holding it the right way. The same goes for crabs if it pinches you, you’re not holding it the right way, and I guess crabby people.

Unravel Love

What if it’s possible to unravel love.
I mean think about it
If you unravel a lie it can destroy an entire family. In the business world a single lie unraveling devalues shareholders & devastates everyone invested or involved. The thing about a lie is when you find one it always uncovers more, that’s the destroying rot of a lie, they grow like mold eating away at life because lies are alway buried and buried things take root and roots that are fed run deep.
Now I believe my God that holds the world in his hands is balanced.
I believe that Satan is not a creator he is a counterfeiter.
I believe that we’ve been unraveling lies so long, the statement unraveling love seems as practical as a purple unicorn.
I’m not gonna let a liar; in fact the father of lies convince me that uncovering the ability to unravel love is a pipe dream.
I believe it’s a word from my Father happily saying look here, yes here…ohhhh you’re getting sooo close.
I believe unraveling one thread of love leads to an entire nest of love & pulls at the very fabric of our design, God is Love! That’s a quote, we are made in his image, that’s a fact. All of creation is groaning & waiting for the children of God to understand who they are & who’s they are and then apply it!!
Everyday for weeks I’ve been asking the Father over & over & over again, “how do I unravel love in my family?” where’s the thread I pull on in this situation?
I believe when God says seek & you will find.
My God is not a Liar!!

Vetrens Day was this week & it got me to thinking, most of the things that keep us from being real with Him, from getting up close is we’re afraid He’ll see our wounds, our scars, our imperfections, but consider for a minute that the things that keep us at arms length are the battle wounds that God actually celebrates, in the way that a war hero would be celebrated. You were wounded in the fight, yes, but don’t be ashamed, those wounds are the proof you were in the fight for your life. You were on the front lines, war was waged on you & not only were you worthy for the fight, it was a fight to the death & you prevailed, not to be ashamed but to be rejoiced over to be celebrated, to have tasted victory & know its possible to prevail against the odds.
The body of Christ is coming out of a season that looks like the way the homecoming did for most of the Vietnam Veterans, unsympathetic, but we are moving into a season where grace abounds. And the scars that tried to hold you back, now make notice to the vital part you played, & the shame that once kept you at a distance is tied back and replaced with honor for the ground that you held.
Scars are places you’ve been but didn’t stay.
You’re pathway to your message is sometimes through your mess.

What are you Chasing?
Everyone’s chasing something, we chase dreams, dogs chase their tail, some of us run fast enough that we can actually see what we’re chasing. No matter was your pace is something lies ahead that keeps you from turning around, so what is that?
What is King Saul would’ve chased after God the way he chased after David, well that would’ve change history. He was capable of the chase, because he chased, he had the time, because he used it, he had the resources because he used them. King Saul spent his life chasing David.

You can use hind sight to change your chase, history is being made every day. You are in charge of the direction of your chase. Generations from now will history look back & admire your chase or will they learn from your waste.